satu lagi ujian

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

setelah berhari2 aku menunggu si dia..

petang tdi si dia pulang ke tanah air dan msj aq..

dengan perasaan yang pernuh bersyukur..

aq balas mesej si dia..

hati aq berbunga bunga dan sangat bersyukur..

aq ingat dia sudah tidak ingin kenal aq lagi..

 

malam td, aku msej si dia..

assalamualaikum adam..

yang dibalas nya.. wsalam./ ye syg. knp "?

hati aq sgt berdebar.. apkah ini benar ??

sebelum ini dia penah marah aq pgil die sebgitu..

aq seperti ingin melompat..

aq berasa sangat gembira..

aq kirakan ini adlah hadiah setelah aq bersabar sekian lama..

tapi tibe2 malam ni..

die kata kami hnya boleh kawan..

kerana mama nya inginkan die bertunang bulan depan..

tibe2 hati terasa ingin tercabut..,

badan aku mengigil..

lancang saje bibir ku beristifar byak2..

agar tenang sdekit dgn air mata yng mencurah laju..

apakah dugaan ini.?? aku redha..

aku solat sunat. mengaji...

aku rsa lebih tenang...

namun jauh dalam sudut hati..

aku masih berharap untk mnjdi yg halal buatnya..

Adamm...

Long time not Hear

Assalamualaikum. hoo..
it has been a long time since im updating my blog..
i dont mind if i dont have any reader..
i write for myself.. to express my feeling..
I have changed a lot..
It is almost a year i didnt take a look at my blog
im worried someone i know will read it..
im afraid she or he will annoys me..
so i write for myself..

Almost a week ago, i knew someone named Firas Adam.
He is a good guy, but i noticed it later..
After i mess up with him,. im then noticed his kindness.
Im being too careful . thats why i messed up everything.
And now he is gone..
He switched off his phone for 2 days.
Maybe he use new number.
Maybe he does not want to be disturb by me anymore.
i have been missing him since the day we had a fight
i am now regret.,
i wish to turn back time.
and be friends with him once again..
Dear Firas Adam.. I MISS YOU SO MUCH,,
i now can only pray to Allah.
so that Allah always take care of him..
I hope he will be fine whenever he is.